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When I Think Of You

My heartache begins when you soak into my veins... and
throbbing pain gets stronger because I miss you tonight, 
Normally liquors can help me forget you when I'm too tired to fight.
I can usually drink you right off of my mind,
But tonight the damn Gin, Bourbon or Brandy...and every liquor taste like wine.
Even Whiskey, Tequila, Vodka, and Rum couldn’t numb me.
Everything we were, everything we once had,
All the sweet memories linger in my head…
I can normally drown you out with a radio on,
But tonight I can’t get in-tune with any damn songs.
I wished that I’m dreaming as the memories plays through…
Darling, will you ever know that my soul is dying as I await you?

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S88Wit5bNdY



Drifting with the Wind

Drifting and hiding from North to South, East to West… try to figure out what’s best.
Drifting with the wind doesn’t need a runway, a lonesome being flying away…
But a sacred light brightens the way… a romance path leading her to stay.
Emotionally she’s ready to love again, and she’ll set sail love of a life time.
You see!! Secretly, verbally she whispers love...
A parrot once told me, in a comfort zone she speaks freely.

"A Love that brings out the impatient in me, much love for you I cant set my mind free.
A worrisome of things I can’t foresee…the distant between us what worries me.
The thought of loving you keeps me awake and restless... my love for you keeps me sleepless,
A daily prayer to God and Goddesses selfishly; armed with sincere love I await your pity.
Thought I can let go by occupied time with things to do…
But meeting strangers can’t ease my mind, surfing the net and being online brings me here to you.
A soaring tour from a helicopter, a tour on a deep-sea cruise,
Or a simple drive on a winding road with impeccable view... Even a difficult climb on the rolling hills couldn’t stop me from missing you."

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S88Wit5bNdY

The Invisible Butterflies

Why am I feeling sad…if there’s no one to upset me or make me mad?
What is the meaning, if I see your face in the myth of the raining cloud?
But there’s always sunshine when I looked south.
All of the mix up emotions…I’m not sure, what it’s all about.
Could it be the so called “Beautiful Mess?”
Will there be a Typhoon or a big Hurricane?
Will it blows me away or cure my emotional pain?
Or will it put me on the South-bound lane?
But if the currents stop to drop me near…will I find you there?
What if it takes me to 27th street, what would you say to greet?
Would you say “Hello” and shake my hand then walk away?
Would you give me a hug and hold me tight, would you ask me to stay?
The “Invisible Butterfly” drives me insane…what will cure this kind of pain?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zn2ioc2xMb4

Stronger

I’m a little bit stronger, I’m glad didn’t hold on a bit longer.
Even my heart is telling me to stay... but I was born a fighter even on my weakest day.
Fights with you is all I’ve ever known, you’ve come and gone while I’m crying all alone.
A fight that makes me sees... I’ve been missing a better half of me.
A fight for Love lost in the beauty of everything I see... my love was lost in the world of fantasy.
All I see is you and me, even when there’s a war between a fantasy and reality.
But I’m tired of justifies, and I'm done with hearing my heart cries….
One last fight was all I needed; to see that this world isn’t as good as I paint it to be…
Well, the world is waiting for me whether it shine or rain... somewhere out there I will feel a little less pain.
But going to bed with a broken heart and hear it cries, it is hard to ignore… it need to be justified.
I was born a fighter and I refused to be defeated… with a broken heart I can hardly sleep.
So I rolled out of bed and onto my knees…for a moment there I can hardly breathe.
Then I pick up the broken pieces as I feel my heart bleeds… my eyes filled up with tears as I weep.
While the world is fast spinning, I'm in my room holding on to my heart as it's slowly stop bleeding.
A one way love isn’t worth anything, I'm going to pack my bag and keep on moving.
Today I’m going to walk with my head up high cause I’ve got no more tears to cry.
Today I'm going to let you go, cause I’m thru with all of the “Holding it in" and I’m going to start living.
A life time misery is cured by the courage you’ve given me,
The love we’ve once shared came to an end that sets me free.
The kisses that you’ve sent gave me giggles and smiles...
but if you look up you’ll see them scattered across the sky, Its all that’s left for us to mesmerize...
Thank you for the “Life” you’ve given me, Thank you for the “Worries-free”
Thank you for all that you've done, Thank you for the “lesson” that helps me sees.
And here are the last thanks from me.

Inspired by the sadness of a brown-eyed girl and a Struggled Love of a couple

requested by you

Sad Day For The Livings

What is a sad day for the livings, the innocent loss and the bad guys win.
He looks at peace but how was he before he died, his love ones are left to cry….
No one has heard or seen anything.... till the Sun rise high in morning.
This is Life in a poor country, nothing is filtered nor rated.
This is how The Corrupted rolls in an Un-regulated country,
Where all the Out-Law roams around on the Killing spree.
Some say “Life is cheap” in the Khmer Country,
But personally,
"Life is not to be tagged…Mountains of diamonds or Oceans of money,
Human life CAN'T be bought although it was given free.
But the Bads, the Cruels will rob a Life from you and me;
They’re the Greed and the Needy…they do things blind and selfishly."
 
In this ignorant world if I'm granted 3 wishes, I would wish for.....
NOT for Diamonds, Gold, or Money,
But to eliminates the Cruels, the Bads, and the Greedys.
I'll grand the Innocents and Poor with Peace, Harmony, and worries free.
Last thing I'd wish for is, for us to Love and Protect one another for eternity.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xI2sfSejRn8&feature=share

http://kohsantepheapdaily.com.kh/article/32689.html

You're My Inspiration

You’re my inspiration… you’re my soul;
You’re the motivations that had me set a Lifetime Goal.
You need someone and I need you to hold, I need you here with me when I grow old.
When I think of you takes away my fear, because thinking of you takes me elsewhere;
I can feel you near when my world is falling apart, you makes me see when there’s no light to break up the dark.
You’re the prize that keeps me reaching for the wins; you’re the fire that keeps me thriving.
You’re the reasons behind my coming home; because when I get there I know I won’t be alone.
I’ll travel the miles no matter how far and if I get lost I’ll follow the star…
If I can see you will make me happy, we'll travel the miles from city to city.
But you’re a world apart I can not see; life with out you near isn’t easy.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S88Wit5bNdY

Inspired by the lonesomeness of the picture

The Lonely Heart

Another cloudy day, my loneliness has comes and gone a way...
Nothing seems to exists but emptiness and nightly pray.
Sitting here thinking of you, thinking of someone I had never knew...
Thinking of someone to love and to share my personal point of views.
Thinking of you makes me crazy but thinking you set my mind free,
And it is you who keeps me wishing, you’re everything that keeps me going.
You’re my Wishing start, I'd travel the miles no matter how far.
Though it maybe only exists in that special few, but I will search the world just to find you.
In a perfect love quest, I’d lay my head down on your chest.
Listening to your heart would jumpstart mine… you’ll be happy and I’ll be fine.
If I can have anything in the world, I’d rather have you instead of gold, diamonds, and pearls
A bit of beauty would be a plus, but I’d prefer a personality over the rest.
I can deal with bad news all day, knowing I’d come home to you would make me Ok.
If I can have anything new, I'd do anything just to have you as my nightly view.
Darling! My compassion, affection and tenderness await you.
We’d snuggle under the moonlight, you’d pull me close and I’d hold you tight.
My feelings all balled up inside, it is awaits you to help me untie.....
But I’m living someone else’s life, its like I stepped outside and nothing is going right.
In a crowded world I’m surrounded by million lives, but there’s not one that can make me smile.
In a room full of others but I’m still feeling all alone, why can’t I have a sweetheart to call my own?
My loneliness long overdue; I’m yearning for love from someone like you.
In a room with all the beauty, but not one that match my personality.
If she hasn’t been born and there’s no one for me please set my mind free.
But if she’s somewhere near, please let her love overcomes my regrets and fears.
Yearning of Falling in-love and growing old, thinking of life with out you my world is going cold.
If I can find you would make me happy but I loss all bets in life, that is my reality.

It is inspired by a request from someone with a lonely heart.

Is Life A Precious Gift?:

When life a bit too hard, I take a deep breath shakes it off and goes back to a start.
Sometime life makes me crazy, but I love deep and hate free.
I sometime see that life is nothing but easy, and I'm Grateful for the beauty of god’s creativities.
I tried not to be needy, and appreciate the simplicity...
Sometime I give up when I gave a blank stare, although I have much care.
But Life is forever changing; I barely have a grip on anything.
Living life in a complex situation, when in doubt here's what I questioned...
Is romance and love a beautiful bliss? Is it chemistry or is it a gift?
Dose romance truly exists or is it just a myth?
If I kneel down to pray and say “I’m sorry”, will life gets any easy?
Lord, Please!! Come to rescue me, if you can please set my mind free.
Life is like a fast moving curve ball; from day to day I never knew where it might fall.
A complex life that I live, I tried my best to think of it as a precious Gift.
I always have this broader view, but you never appreciate me for the things that I do.
My sincere caring is unnoticed, but can’t you see what I'm dealing with is rarely exists?
And all I want is to be appreciated and praised by you from time to time.
There’s no need to understand, but please listen with your open mind.
Living life is a complex thing to do… that is my experienced and point of view.

Inspired y the complexity of a human mind. We can listen but could never fully understand.

The “Father’s LOVE” That We Found

Thanks to the answered prayer from the angle up above,
A broken family is fixed by a man’s LOVE.
His love has comfort  us when things went wrong, thanks for leaving the light on.
Thanks to the love that shows, when we're lost we can always see it glow.
His love is what we need; it’s a Gift that keeps our feelings flow.
 If it seemed we never show, today we want you to know.
Deep in our hearts we treasure…
From the Ice Cream Shop we stop for the treats.
From a “Hole in the wall”, to fancy places we stop to eat.
From the simple Picnics we had in the park, to the short walks along the beach.
The simple drive from Frisco to LA, to the trips we made on the holidays.
From the smelly cow poop we passed on the way,
To All the things we did and where we stayed.
From Amusement Park rides we had with you, to all the fun and Disney views.
The games we played to the things that mom said out of the blue,
Things she said were amused…
SRB. Thank you for wrapping me up after my surgery.
           Thank you for cleaning my pus when there’s just you and me.
           Thank you for taking me everywhere, and thank you for your care
           Thank you for everything you do...especially, for The Blue Angle Crew.
MRB. Thank you for leaving the lights on for me to see my way home to you
           Thank you Matt, for everything that you do.
JLA. I don’t know much but I know I love you…..Grandpa and Babes too.
Today is Father’s Day and we’re proud to stay because we want to celebrate it with you.
Thank you for being The Father, we know you didn’t have to...Thank God for sending us straight to you.
We celebrate with all respect from us to you, for all the things you ‘ve done and will do.
We haven’t said much but this is our way of saying how much we appreciate you.
Here’s a Father’s Day Card from us to you...

Happy Father’s Day..... :) :)

  

ALZHEIMER IS A DISEASE of OLD AGE DAY

Alzheimer is a disease that got you in your old age day.
Years a go I was called, and told that you were found walking along I-5 Highway,
Even in your own home you’d get lost every single day.
Months after you were looking around in a long hallway,
I’d see you suffer, and picked you up when you can’t find your way.
Years has past, last month we checked you into the Hospital.
We were told “the most you’d have is 1month or a couple weeks to live”
Due to your Bodily Functions have nothing more to give...
I knew your time would come, and the Grim Reaper is near.
But In spite of what I knew, I still chase the Grim Reaper with nightly prayers….
Then At 9:45am On a Sunday morning I was told “8:50am” was when you passed away,
On the very day I was to visit you at where you stay.
Now and forever I could only hope and pray....
And I know you would find your way to "The Man" of all Creation,
But I hope you’d know that you are missed by everyone.
If there are holes on the floor of Haven, I know I’d see you fain
and you'd be one that helps God pour out the rain.
Lord! Please, let him be the Angel that washes away our pain.
 
I love you my dearest, Sandra
my emptyness, sadness and my very own personal loss   :(

The Sad Blue Tears Of A Brown. Eyed Girl

Las Vegas, NV. Was where I cried, in the year of 2005.
At home in a "Yesteryear" I was left with a Key to the car,
Then I was told when you left and where you are.
I went in the room to hide but in the closet was where I cried,
I hung on to our sweet memories; I cried and prayed for sympathy.
But Hell broke lose and fell from the sky, why must it fall on me? Lord!! Why?
The problem wasn't me so, Haven helped me see an angel in disguise.
Then I tried to move on and live life... on the way home in the car with CY,
In an evening from a far, in an orange sky he sited a star.
Then he said.....

"Mom, you can wish up on the shining star"
"I am wishing Son! And what are you wishing for?"
"I wish for Dad to come home, that is my wish on the star"
"Why does Dad have to work so far?"
"If he’s home, he'd help me put up the Christmas tree."

I was all chocked up... because the truth lies deep inside me.
In the end it was only CY and me under the Christmas tree.
Just today I found a Christmas "Note" under the Accessories,
in the month of December it was given to me.
Now and forever it will be an Ornament for our yearly Christmas tree.
And this is what it said....
"Have a happy Christmas Mom, Dad, and Gandma" Love, CY 12/08/2005.

Then, was when her sad blue tears caught a ride to the sea,
What’s left was a reminder, the yearly Christmas tree and her memories.
Long a go was when she cried tears of sorrow, but there won’t be today or tomorrow.
This is a story of......
A Brown Eyed Girl with a lovely son, and the sad blue tears that caused by someone. 

I hope I capture those moments and hope your story inspires others to move on and "Live" life as you do.Here it is, inspired by your story and request 12/15/2010.

The Day We Met

 :)  It's funny how we met, Myspace, Facebook.... the world of "Internet"
All the search engines couldn’t stop me there, till I found a site with my fellow Khmers
Hun Sen's acts angers me... I cusses and I swears cause life ain't fair.
Then you talked about fireplace and red wines,
I said "Throw in some sweet potatoes and corns, if you don't mind"
Sipping red wine and talking about life....There’s something worth to mesmerize
last I remembered, I was hearing some heart beats and what I was telling you in my sleep...

"The day I met you, your heart beats sings me to sleep.
  The day I met you, I want to be in your arms.
  The day I met you, all my dreams came true. 
  The day I met you, I knew I would love you.
  The day I met you, I want to hold and caress you.
  The day I met you, I want to love and embrace you.
  The day I met you, I knew I will grow to love and respect you.
  The day I met you, I wish to grow old with you for eternity."

But it was all a bluer and feeling stirs... cause devil just sitting right there on shoulder.
Then he said "Place your bet, if you win He’s yours to keep”
but he pocked my eyes before everything complete…
I was mad as a Grinch….the Devil smile and said “too bad Kiddo!! You loose and I win”
I was chasing him back to Hell….he asked Why? I said “I don’t like your fleshy smell”
Then I realized I woke up to reality....I woke up in my room and my feeling is empty.
In my dreamzzz there's someone else in the space between you and me.
I guess, I'm not yours and you're not mine... But I'm OK, don't you worry about me..I'llbe find.
Let me lay it all the line, here on the "Internet" you can certainly be mine.

:)  So!!! Darling, Love, Babes, Sugar pie, Sweaty or Honey... Tell me, Who would you like to be?

MY SWEET CHRISTMAS WISH

It all started with a friendly conversation.
On Friday Night he wishes for a Kind Hearted someone,
But The Christmas Wish was an excuse for his confession.
and this is what he said….
 
"KHS is Caring, Loving and Kind, in life KHS ought to be mine.
She has that spicy kick and a bit feisty, but KHS is a Sweetie.
Yeah, this is my Christmas wish, sweet and kind is The Girl that I had mind.”

At home where I was sitting....with a conversation of my own.
On screen was a message from someone as I was getting off the phone.
It had me flattered and it gave me grins, a confession from Khmer Destin.
Oh my!! Should I laugh or should I cry? His wish was to be for Life.
Then I caught myself wishing the “Wish” and this is what I said…..

“If there is a NEXT life, I wish to reborn to be your wife”
“I’d sprinkle charms and keep you out of harms”
“We’d run around chasing kids, or dig the ground”
“Maybe!! we’d grow sugar canes, sweet potatoes and corns”
“From dawn till dust watching our kids till they’ve all grown”
“Then we’d do things and have fun on our own”
“We’d count Stars under the moon light. Or cuddles indoor and be out of sight”
“Maybe we’d be sun bathe on the Ocean front,
Or tour the flooded stream and witness the spawns”
“We’d be fishing at the Rivera under a shaded tree,
With a Basket full of Orderves and wines just for you and me”
“We’d enjoy all the simple things, listening to thunders or the pouring rain”
“We'd teach each other to Learn,Live, Love and Laugh every night, 
these are things that we'd do, if we ought to be partner in Life”

Here it is, inspired by a sweet love confession that he had for an Author whom has not met.

The "LOVE" Of A Caregiver

By NOT eating out just one weekend, Your expense of a weekend meal at a Restaruant can feed and sove lives. Please help feed the poor in any way you can around the World. You can feed this Mother & Child, Father & Chil, OR Sister & Brother.

Last night I woke up to the sound of someone cried.
To my surprised, it was tears that tickled my eyes.
As the image flashes before me I realized, I woke up to my own cried.
The Images replays and thoughts crossed my mind,
it hurts like I was stabbed millions of times.
I look deep into their sad little eyes; I can hear all the hidden cries.
Your hunger will be sooth; only if, the kindness of someone will find you.
In the distance, I can only hope and pray…because mine is too far away.
This is Love from someone new; somehow I hope my love will find you.

Here it is, inspired by the pictures, poverty, your requests and the sadness.
There was a Father and Child with nothing but a drinking gourd.
They roamed the city with their bare feet,
trying to find food and things they may need.
No places to go, they took refuge on the city street.
There they were as they rendered to the quiet night...
Laying there, unaware into the morning light.
In the comfort of loving arms he's asleep and out of harms,
his father's Love was a charm; unaware the father tender cares shows in his arms.

 
Then, the picture of a Mother and Child looked right at me.
Due to poverty, they fight hunger endlessly.
But "Malnutrition" was the thought that crossed my mind.
My heart aches like I was stabbed millions of times.
If I could, I would trade their life with mine; because being poor is not a crime.
Embraced and caressed, is his mother’s Love at its best.
Although, he's in his mother tender cares... but he needs someone to spear;
If your kindness is on its way... it can ease away their sorrow
Please!! if your kindness don't come today, there might not be "A Tomorrow."

Then I clear my misty eyes, but instead of smile there comes more cries.

There was a sister comforting her brother,
In the absent of their mother and father.
To my assumption she must have said….
“Go to sleep my little brother,”
“As you await for mother and father”
“When you’re awake, there’ll be food to sooth your hunger”
“Yes, I know you do, because I feel the same way too”
“But you must, and try your best; both, you and I need a bit of rest…..”
This is Love from one to another, a tender cares from a Sister to a Brother.  


In the distance, I can only hope and pray…because mine is too far away.

This is Love from someone new; somehow I hope my love will find you.                                                                                                                      

Your past will Break or Make your future

The past will make you laugh but it can also make you cry.
The past will make you sad, mad, angry, and happy too.
The past will make you live OR it will make you die...
Folks! This is for you to decide,
But if you live your past your future dies…
Your past will hold you down and make you cries.
The past is a path that never stays, but the past will make us wise.
The past is a one way you could never turn, you can only live and learn.
The past was there to teach us life, it teaches us all how to survive.

It is inspired by a young girl and those who’s struggle to move on, because their innocent had been robbed.
DO NOT live your past, but rather learn from your past, to be kind, caring, loving and to live life.  So, please live for today, hope for tomorrow and let your past dies.

THE SHY BUTTERFLY

Hey there beautiful butterfly!
How do you do when you fly?
Can you take me up into the clear blue sky?
I wish to see with my own eyes.
High up in the sky I will have the butterfly's view.
I know I will see all the hidden surprise.
Butterfly! Will you and I be soaring through the clear blue sky?
Please, don’t be shy and don’t fly away cause I am here to stay.

Inspired by the instinct to camouflage from birth.




 

MY PAINFUL MEMORIES

If I could paint this Pain out of my chest,
Just the BAD memories but not all the rest….
I’d do it in Black, Red, Purple, Yellow, and Blue….
BLACK for HELL that we’ve all been through….
These are the things that I once knew, mental pain and others too…
But mental pain I wish I can undo…
Physical pains of Blacks and Blues has faded away…
But mental pain that I once knew won‘t go away…
These pains will stay till Angel close my eyes…

A painful cries of a man as he endure the loss of his relative after being bombed.
When one is talking about the bad memories, you most likely will see all the pain that they held inside. So, here is a dedications to the painful moments.

WHAT IS "LOVE"?

I don’t know LOVE, but this much I know…

Love is joy, Love is pain
Love is a tie that can’t be unchained
Love is a bug that drives you insane
Love will make you cry in pain
Love is how you feel.... It’s a demand from your Heart & Brain.
Once you find love, you’ll never feel the same…
At times you’ll feel trap; like picture that is framed…
Love is a feeling from one to another though you're not the same
And only Love will free your remains...

Inspired by a question about LOVE